Dear Lord,

I am sorry for growing old in ignorance, for believing in things that had nothing to do with you or your Word. Help me Father God to see you in every moment. Helpme to reach for you and to listen to your voice. Father i have made my bed in hell, and still like you promise you are there. Thank you for giving me children that will be stronger in you then i have been. Thank you for a woman patient, loving, graceful , and enduring. Make me an answer to there prayers as a man worthy of leading them to you in everyway possible. Abba love me, love them and help me to love others. I confess to you that i have continued to dislike those who oppose you and have hated those who say you will except them in there sins because your love for them will cancel out your justice. Lord i fear failure in my faith and obediance to you. Lord I ask you to keep me steadfast in my seeking you and that i never compromise the love you have given me. I feel like a fool when my christian brothers and sisters laugh at my longing to do whats right in every situation. Why was i born with such conviction in my heart all the time? Lord thank you for it if it keeps me in your wing. Have i gone wrong Father do i read to much into these things, am i stuck on the law instead of the love? I look at your followers throughout history and they seem to love and not bend when it comes to following your commands. Why then does every one shout COMPROMISE MAN and here i sit confused and discouraged.God thank you for the many blessings in my life and for the family you have made for me. Forgive me if i have let you down. Trying Lord always trying your servant Benjamin kelley