What is a real christian?

Do you believe? do you hope or even pray that you'll make the code, why is it that I hear people say well you believe you should know your getting in right. Dont clutter my mind with your foolish banter I feel like yelling. I am a chistian I hope and pray i make the code but will I... Here I sit angry and confused repulsed to hear my own thoughts. I have cars and crap alike but misery follows me, doubt sits by my side keeping me busy answering stupid questions about what kind of human am I. My two year old shows God in his eyes and i see him in my daughters presence.My heart feels hard,dried up and sick...


Lord most high, Hear my prayer...
My eyes are dry, My faith is old, My heart is hard, My prayers are cold
And i know how i aut to be
alive to you and dead to me
so what can be done for an old heart like mine
soften it up with oil and wine
the oil is you, your spirit of love
please a knew in the wine of your blood...(K.G.)


Father open my heart to you and away from this wicked place.
Forgive my sins
teach me to love as you do
Thank you for grace
grace called Sara