...ahh Good Ole backyard bonfire's..

I have been trying to spend as much time with friends and family as I can the last couple days because our time of living in this place is coming to an end very quickly. To me, that isn't really a super sad thing. It is sad in ways, but when I look around the utter chaos that is this place sometimes, I am thankful for the change. I don't like mess. I like organization and cleanliness. I like peace. To me, organization and cleanliness cause a sort of peace. I don't want to clean this place anymore! :)
I love our neighbors. They are hilarious. I miss Becky most when doing these types of things, but last night, our neighbors from next door, and then below them, we all went outside and had a fire in a little grill.
I burned 7 journals. Offered em to God. Was kind of sad because in them housed my emotions and goings on since I was married. I couldn't believe looking through them how much I have changed in the last few years. Amazing. Reading through some of my thoughts from dealing with problems with infertility and miscarriages (one, and then twins) and all the stuff that surrounded that, looking into adoption, dogs, past jobs, feelings of sadness, feelings of joy, and the beginning of my Christian walk, make me feel nostalgic, but sad. I used to do somewhat of a scrapbook in my old journals, so I had to be careful what I threw into the flames, but seriously it feels good to be rid of the baggage that that stuff carried. My neighbors gave me a hard time about us moving. I expected nothing less, and was so happy to laugh with them for awhile and forget why I am so stressed. This morning I wake up and it is Sunday. Most Sunday mornings are incredibly hectic and frustrating, today I am going to keep a positive attitude. I love Sundays for the most part. Think they are wonderful because I get to worship, pray, hear about the stuff going on with the body of Christ, see my sister, and see friends. So looking forward to that. May also get to have supper with the inlaws tonight which would be really wonderful. Most of all, I want to really enjoy the time we spend for the rest of our time here. We have said that we will be gone for three months or so. Even that is a long time to be gone. Either way, when we come home, we won't have a home at this place anymore.
Today I need to relax and reflect, be peaceful and joyful because God has provided for us in SO many ways.
Today I want to refocus on some of the things I need to work on in myself.
Today I want to love.