Bleh.... Can't use my blog on Blackberry

BuT! At least I have internet now... eventhough it is on my mobile phone... it is working out really well that I can keep up with people a bit better, so send me a message! :) I hope to get internet on our laptop eventually, but for now, the Blackberry is working out! SOOOOO

thegeddes@gmail.com
and my new number is
715-966-0918

and I am also on facebook...

Don't know when I will be back to bloggin :(

Its been awhile...

And it will probably be awhile longer before we can afford internet access to our house in the woods. I wish I could post pics, but can't, as I am always using the internet at the library or elsewhere. Can't wait until we get all that fixed. For now, we are enjoying our family, our house, our huge yard, the fire pit, the family that likes to vacation here (you are welcome to come. Please please do... it is only about a 4 hour drive from where we used to live, and trust me it isn't bad. You won't be sorry).

I have to work today (I am a waitress now) and Ben is waiting to hear from his interview that he had yesterday.

I am on my way now to see my nieces get their hairs cut for school starting next week...

Then to work.

Blessings...

Fertility Issues and Surgery

I thought I may as well blog about this because it is probably something that you all would hear about one way or another anyhow.
I was with my sweet friend Shel on Saturday and was experiancing pain in my side (I had been feeling it for a couple days) and she suggested that I be seen. I got to Ben's Dad's (where my dear husband was) and asked him to take me to the ER.

We went to West Allis Memorial, and they had about a two hour wait in the ER. I was in so much pain that it was making me feel faint and nauseated. After waiting about two hours I started to feel better, and we decided to leave. The nurse said that she would have to charge us for a triage visit, and then something made her ask about the fact that I have had an ectopic pregnancy in the past. Yep. So, she asked "Have you tested for pregnancy?" Well, nope, I wasn't far enough in my cycle to even think of testing with an at home pregnancy test. SO, she suggested that we check and then she would let us go. We waited all of about 10 minutes and she came in and told me that it was positive. So, eventhough the ER was super booked, they made a makeshift wall in their hallway so they could give me a scan. They couldn't see anything but did all sorts of testing, started an IV line, got me in a room, did a pelvic and everything. They ordered a formal ultrasound. The sonographer lady was awesome. She informed us though that there was pretty much no point in looking because my HcG hormones were so low. So, they discovered that I had an unusual amount of fluid in my pelvis. Great. So, the doc ordered that I stay over night and that they re-draw blood the next day to see if the levels went up (they should at least double). So, I spent the night in the hospital with no pain at all.
The next day the doctor himself came in and explained that the numbers had not doubled and had actually gone down which means that I was having an unsuccessful pregnancy. We discussed my options and he told me that the fastest would be a laproscopic surgery (three incisions in my abdomen) and a D&C. We went ahead with that. So, I had two procedures and have spend the last couple days recovering in the hospital. Today they discovered that my HcG had gone back up. Not good. So they had to give me a shot and ordered me to come in to their office (which is now 4.5 hours from where I live) to have the physician that cared for me check me over.
I am happy to be home at Grams now. Sad that I missed my birthday party. Sad that we have had another unsuccessful pregnancy, but thankful to be home with my beautiful kids and heading upnorth tomorrow with my parents and family. Things will get better soon I am sure, but for now I ask for your prayers.

...its been a long time...

Oh man I miss having my computer up and runnin so much. I mean in ways I do, and in ways I don't. I have really appreciated having the extra time to do other things with my kids and take walks and such.

We are in town and staying at Grams, and then I am heading back tomorrow with my family and little Grams with some of our things from storage, and then we come back again Tuesday to pick up more from our storage unit. So excited to get some of our things home. We are having a wonderful timeat our new house. I wish it wasn't as far away from things as it is, but that doesn't even make it a big deal to me because I love it so much. There is something I really like about getting snail mail, and composting, and having fires and all the northwoodsy things we are doing lately.

I got a job working at a restaurant as a server, which will be helpful for the time being. Ben is searching up and down for jobs too. We are excited because people are starting to come up and visit us now, so we can share with them our little house, and our huge piece of land. The kids love it. They love being by their cousins, auntie, and uncle. It is so much fun.

I wish I had brought my card to load some photo's, but in honesty it will be much more fun to share with you photo's once we can start to get our own belogings there and get a couple things settled in.

Today we are heading off to see people. George, JoAnn, Shelly, and my parents :)

We are going to get internet soon.

Until then, thanks for hangin' in!

Monday.

The house is coming along famously. Wish I would have uploaded photos to share with you today. Ooop! We had my father in law over this weekend, so happy to be able to share it with him... the cute place.. it is precious. Can't wait until we can get our things there to fill it up! :)
Pics to come very soon!
Oh, and starting a compost. SO jazzed to compost and then have a garden next year!
Looking for a job too, it is tough.

Moved in!

We have now moved into our house, it is so much fun. We only had enough from to fill up the Jeep, but we are having a blast, have to take a bit of time off from the internet because the new place doesn't have it. Working on getting internet through alltell up here, details to come later.

New Day, new tude.

Today I am feeling much much better. Yesterday I was sad. No particular reason, just was.
We applied for jobs online last night. Looked into getting high speed internet upnorth too, which will turn out to be much more affordable then I thought. Phew.
Spending time with God today. We are going to drive upnorth, our Jeep is packed. I am actually excited for it today. Lucky how God works. I am scared/worried/lonely/upset. I say a small prayer and He is there for me. Eventhough I have been rebelious lately. He is there for me. I think that is the source of my depression lately. Haven't been turning to God for help. I've been rebelious.
Thank you, Lord for who you are, that even if I am rebelious to you, you still are there. Loving me. Helping me through the counseling words of my friend. Thank you God for the people that You put there for me. Amen.
SO... off to a different type of day with a different type of attitude.